How can God love a mess like me?
"I messed up again. I ate chocolate cake. Now I'm doomed to eat chocolate cake for the rest of my life"
This sentence in some form plays in the back of your head over and over again. One mistake and it’s like all the progress in self-love and growth meant nothing. We eat something we weren’t supposed to and our diet is “ruined”. We fail one test or botch one project and now we’re “always a failure”. We let stress get the better of us and have that just one drink that turns into one more won’t hurt and now we’re “good for nothing”.
How can God love me if I can’t even love myself? If I can’t even stop yelling at my children? If I can’t even read my bible every day? If I can’t even remember to pray regularly? If I can’t even stay out of the bar? If I can’t even……
God is all-knowing and all-powerful; He is not surprised by our mistakes, nor does he hold it against us. Romans 8:37-39 “In all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” He doesn’t expect us to “even” by ourselves. He wants us to trust Him to help us get through our struggles.
“But didn’t you see what I did, it’s too much for Him to love me still”
When you slip up you don't lose God's love because of this wonderful thing called Compassion. The dictionary defines compassion as "sympathetic pity and concern for the sufferings or misfortunes of others". In Psalm 103:13 it says “As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him.” If your child dropped a glass of milk you wouldn’t scream at them and tell them to leave the house, would you? No, you would show the child how to clean up the mess and ask them to be more careful next time. God loves us even when we make mistakes because He is a good father.
“But my sin still keeps me away from Him, I’ll never make it to heaven after what I did.”
1 John 1:9 "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness." You messed up. Own it. Tell God what you did and why you did. Then ask Him to help you understand how to avoid making that decision in the future. If you feel guilty instead of wallowing in self-pity use that emotion to remind you why you’re reaching for more.
Humans are imperfect but we are loved by a God who is perfect. What do you need to ask God to forgive you for? What do you need to forgive yourself for? If you need help, reach out to a friend for accountability or your pastor for guidance. You are not in this walk alone?